Pretty

Bella is doing better now. She hasn't thrown up in a couple of days.
She also has learned to acknowledge the word "pretty". So you can say, "Bella, Are you pretty?". Then she smiles. Its cute!!!

TIRED

I'm tired of worrying all of the time. I'm tired of worrying when she doesn't sleep all night. I'm tired of worrying when she does sleep all night. I'm tired of worrying when she cries. I'm tired of worrying when she doesn't cry. I'm tired. Jen's tired. We're both exhausted. We are ready to just love her all of the time and give up all of the worrying. We worry about the stupid little things now. Its part of our nature now.

Peace be with you,
Jen, Jw, and I'm the boss Bella

To Much Time To Think

It takes me about 30 minutes to get to work. I pretty sure that that is to much time to think. Being by yourself, you ponder on things. Like today, I wondered how you explain the colors to someone who has never seen them? How do you describe red, yellow, or blue to a blind person? I came up with nothing.

Jen, Jw, and Battle Axe Bella

Birthday Bash

um you, you got something right there. no the other side.

mmmm...a whole cake just for me!!!!

All of these presents for me!

mmmm...more!

Birthday Princess

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday baby girl!!!!

Its been one heck of a year.

love ya
jen, jw, and birthday girl bella

its the final countdown...1 day

Look how tiny she was....now she's freakin' huge!!!!
She is in a great mood today. It must be the sunshine!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Birthday girl to be Rory Isabella Shoemaker

countdown to the Birthday...2 days

Hard to believe that its almost been a year. What a very long and winding road it has been. It has been a very rewarding year with Bella. She has taught me, changed me, and molded me into what I am now. She has taught me to love, care, and what is really important in life.


It has also been a very difficult year for Jen and I. We both can still cry at any point in the day. Bella was sick a couple of weeks ago, I didnt' realized how tired we really are. We are both mentally and physically exhausted. Day to day task seem to be the hardest to get done. Everything seems very difficult and draining. Neither one of us want to do anything with out the baby. We both have fear of what could happen. We don't like leaving her alone anymore. Our lives revolve around the little tike.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Zantac Baby Bella

Happy Mother's Day

Just wanted to tell everyone a Happy Mother's Day.

Bella is doing good. We got to go to the International Barbeque Festival yesterday in Owensboro, Ky. We had a delicious time in O'boro this weekend. Good seeing everyone!

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Burgoo Bella

everything

Everything
by Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals

Behind all of your tears
There's a smile
There's a smile
Behind all of the rain
There's a sunshine
For miles and miles

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

The colors of your garden
They're yellow, blue and green
And the sound of your sweet voice
It's better than all my dreams

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Your my first thought in the morning
When I rise
Oh- when I rise
You're my last thought in the evening
When I rest my head at night

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me

Grateful Dead song lyrics/still my favorite pictures

I Will Take You Home (Little Girl Lost) Lyrics
Grateful Dead


Little girl lost
In a forest of dreams.
It's a dark old wood
And it's damp with dew.
Hoot owl hoots
For a moment it seems
Something big and cold
Just got ahold of you.
Just when everything gets scary,
Daddy's come 'round for his darlin' again.
Hold my hand with your little fingers.
Daddy's loving arms gonna gather you in.
Ain't no way the Bogeyman can get you,
You can close your eyes, the world is gonna let you,
Your daddy's here and never will forget you,
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Long is the road
We must travel on down.
Short are the legs
That will struggle behind.
I wish I knew for sure
Just where we're bound,
What we will be doin'
And what we're gonna find.
Wherever we go, there will be birds to cheer you
Flower to color in the fields around.
Wherever we go, I'll be right here near you
You can't get lost when you're always found.

Ain't no fog that's thick enough to hide you
Your daddy's gonna be right here beside you
If your fears should start to get inside you
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Little Miss Poopie Pants

She smells bad, gosh!

Doing good! Moving towards the Birthday Party!!! Its going to rock! A one year olds birthday party. That's Awesome!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Poopie Pants Bella

Fun in playland

"...Every once in awhile you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right..."
Grateful Dead lyric

Bella and Jen in the O'boro tonight. Bella is doing great and having a good ole time.
You think that something will get Bella down, but she does the opposite of what you think. Its like she has blinders on in life. She is only looking forward, never to go back.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and BadFish Bella