Feeling Sicky

Bella has been doing well, but caught a little bug Friday night. Because she kept throwing up, we had to visit the ER. And of course, she had to be admitted. I have to be thankful, though, because it has been since April that she's had to stay the night in the hospital.

This visit to Kosair has brought back a lot of memories. I've had flashbacks of sleepless nights, talks with the nurses, days of not knowing what her future will bring. We have come so far and yet still cannot predict how all of this will turn out. This time last year, I was emotionally exhausted with worry about Bella's illness. Now, all I can focus on is enjoying my time with Bella - no matter how much time we have with her. Last year, I was consumed with my sorrow; now I'm filled with hope and peace.

If I've learned anything from all this it is to keep laughing at life. That's what Bella does - laugh.

Daddy's little girl

Dresses like daddy, funny like daddy, daddy, daddy!!!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Bashful Bella

Mama

Bella is becoming such a big girl. She now is saying mama and baba (whatever that is suppose to mean). Plus she is sitting up all by herself. Hard to believe that she is doing all these things and it is happening so fast.

Jen, JW and big girl Bella

How funny can velcro be?

Payless Shoe store is really a good time!!

Jen, Jw, and corn mo lover Bella

Who do you look like?

We decided that Bella looked like curious george last nite. Here is all little bit of proof!!

Jen, Jw, and Curious Bella

A poem written for Bella

ashley wrote this about bella (based on bella roo)...

Bella

and as they sing and strike their strings
your life hangs between the balance of every ring
you know more than we
what this all means..


you're above us,
and beyond us,
so inspire and require us,
to take note of what you cling to:
this precious substance,
this priceless life,
that we all mean to,
not take for granted.


but yet,
we do.


let our carelessness be used,
to perhaps save the life of you.

If she can be this happy, then why can't we?

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Laughing Bella

Turkey Day

This is the closest I could find to Bella being a turkey. She is a chicken which I guess somehow is in the turkey family. Not really sure.

She is what I am thankful for this year. Another year, another holiday, another day. She is still here and bring joy whereever she goes

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Belly full Bella

Bella-roo ROCKED!!!

We just wanted to thank all of the bands that played at Bella-roo. They all played for free!!! Bella-roo was a sucess!!
Starting with the first picture and working our way down: Hope Dialect, the Ocelots, A Spectacular Dispay..., and Redfoot. Thank you very much!!!

Backwards in Time but somehow moving forward

So every once in awhile I like to make a list of everything that Bella has gone through, just so I don't forget. Its a good way to keep me up to date with everything and not forget anything. I will probaby forget something.

1. Brain Tumor
2. Shunt surgery
3. Brain surgery
4. Shunt was revised
5. Cyst drained from the tumor
6. Port put in
7. 2 seizures- one month apart
8. Numerous MRIs and Cat scans
8. Pet scan
9. 2 different kinds of chemo for a year
10. 4 different medications daily
11. 3 shots during the weeks of chemo
12. living with me
13. Numerous hospital stays
14. Physical Therapy, Vision Therapy, Occupational Therapy
15. Blind(yep, she can't see)

My heart still hurts but I have my baby. Thats what gets me through the day. She is why I wake up every morning.
She is why I go to work. She is why I have done everything.

Love ya
Jen, jw, and Brave Baby Bella

A Great Day for Freedom

Bella is doing well. We are enjoying every minute that we have with her. Almost every minute. Sometimes she's a little sassy.

We want to thank everyone who had anything to do with Bellaroo. We are so excited about it. It will be on the 18th of Nov. at Trinity Free Will Baptist Church in Bowling Green, Ky. Its free. There will be seven bands and a lot of fun.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and the Bella who put Bella in Bellaroo

Big Baby Turd

Big Girl Bella is learning to sit up all by herself. She is doing fantastic. We just want to love her and squeeze her all of the time.

Bella-roo is a concert that will happen on November 18th. It is a fund raiser for Bella's well being. It will be at Trinity Free Will Baptist Church in Bowling Green, Ky. There will be seven bands playing that evening. It will start at 5pm.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Big Baby Turd

Bella the Pumpkin

Bella is beginning to get ready for Halloween. She's been wearing her pumpkin outfit and has bought candy for all the kids in the neighborhood. Like last year, Bella will be a chicken for Halloween and will be going out collecting her own candy!

Chemo has been going well. No new news as far as how the tumor is reacting to the chemo. But, Bella is staying strong despite getting over a cold. Each day Bella seems to be getting closer to crawling. She will now get on her hands and knees while trying to get her head off the ground. Hopefully by Christmas she will be crawling.

Hope everyone has a festive Halloween and eat lots of candy!

Jen, jw, and chicken lips Bella

chicken lips

Tiny soldiers do battle each day,
waging silent war against the unseen -
an inward enemy that plays evil tricks
on these soldiers' little bodies.
Still, they fight
Still, they smile
Their courage is unending.
Their greatest weapon is their laughter.
Boundless Hope is their captain,
the banner that they carry high.


Tiny soldiers, though often weak,
endure the tests and treatments
that drive grown men to their knees.
They boldly march toward their prize -
toward whole bodies
toward healthy lives.
Often found playing in their beds,
little pranksters they are at heart,
teasing their doctors and nurses,
living their lives to spite this war.



Tiny soldiers, how many have fallen!
Rivers of tears flow in their memory.
Their spirits live on in order to remind us
to continue in this costly, bloody war.
Fight the fight!
Find the cure!
Bring childhood cancer to its demise!
Sing this song for the young heroes gone before,
and ensure victory for the ones yet to come.
The unseen enemy must win no more.



Copyright © 9/18/2004 Tracy M. Ries

Forever and Always

This past Friday was the one year anniversary of Bella's tumor diagnosis. So I decided to do something that would forever connect me to Bella - I got her footprint tattooed on my tummy. As of right now, her future is still uncertain, so I wanted to have a part of her with me no matter what happens. She will always go where I go and be with me till the day I die if only in tattoo form. When you are faced with the possibility of losing someone you love so much, you try to find ways to hold on to them for as long as possible. I guess I figured that if faced with the reality of having to say goodbye to her physical self that I would have a piece of her spirit always with me.

Jerry, too, has tattooed a part of Bella on him - her name. He had me write out her name and used that for his tattoo.

Please continue to pray for our lovely and sweet Bella.

Jen, JW, and precocious Bella

Cookbooks Have Arrived!

For those of you who don't know, my mother-in-law, Elizabeth Dale, has put together a cookbook which we are selling to raise money for Bella's medical expenses. The cookbooks have some amazingly delicious recipes (all of which are very low in fat and calories) and have cooking/baking tips. In addition, and I think this is the best part, there are pictures of Bella throughout! Cookbooks are selling for $10. If you want a cookbook mailed to you, we are charging $2 for shipping and handling. Now, I know I'm a little biased, but they look fantactic and would make great Christmas gifts. If you're interested, please contact me at badfishbella@gmail.com.

And as always, thanks to all of you for your love and support!

Jen

Look into my eyes

Steady, As She Goes

Why don't you leave me a comment and tell me what you think of this picture?

Nothing I can say

There is nothing that I can say that can really tell you how sorry that I am to everyone that I hurt. I am sorry Jen. I am sorry Mom and Dad. I am especially sorry to the love of my life, Bella. Daddy misses you and will see you really soon.

If you don't know what this means, you will find out soon enough.

Jw