To Much Time To Think

It takes me about 30 minutes to get to work. I pretty sure that that is to much time to think. Being by yourself, you ponder on things. Like today, I wondered how you explain the colors to someone who has never seen them? How do you describe red, yellow, or blue to a blind person? I came up with nothing.

Jen, Jw, and Battle Axe Bella

Birthday Bash

um you, you got something right there. no the other side.

mmmm...a whole cake just for me!!!!

All of these presents for me!

mmmm...more!

Birthday Princess

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday baby girl!!!!

Its been one heck of a year.

love ya
jen, jw, and birthday girl bella

its the final countdown...1 day

Look how tiny she was....now she's freakin' huge!!!!
She is in a great mood today. It must be the sunshine!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Birthday girl to be Rory Isabella Shoemaker

countdown to the Birthday...2 days

Hard to believe that its almost been a year. What a very long and winding road it has been. It has been a very rewarding year with Bella. She has taught me, changed me, and molded me into what I am now. She has taught me to love, care, and what is really important in life.


It has also been a very difficult year for Jen and I. We both can still cry at any point in the day. Bella was sick a couple of weeks ago, I didnt' realized how tired we really are. We are both mentally and physically exhausted. Day to day task seem to be the hardest to get done. Everything seems very difficult and draining. Neither one of us want to do anything with out the baby. We both have fear of what could happen. We don't like leaving her alone anymore. Our lives revolve around the little tike.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Zantac Baby Bella

Happy Mother's Day

Just wanted to tell everyone a Happy Mother's Day.

Bella is doing good. We got to go to the International Barbeque Festival yesterday in Owensboro, Ky. We had a delicious time in O'boro this weekend. Good seeing everyone!

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Burgoo Bella

everything

Everything
by Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals

Behind all of your tears
There's a smile
There's a smile
Behind all of the rain
There's a sunshine
For miles and miles

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

The colors of your garden
They're yellow, blue and green
And the sound of your sweet voice
It's better than all my dreams

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Your my first thought in the morning
When I rise
Oh- when I rise
You're my last thought in the evening
When I rest my head at night

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me

Grateful Dead song lyrics/still my favorite pictures

I Will Take You Home (Little Girl Lost) Lyrics
Grateful Dead


Little girl lost
In a forest of dreams.
It's a dark old wood
And it's damp with dew.
Hoot owl hoots
For a moment it seems
Something big and cold
Just got ahold of you.
Just when everything gets scary,
Daddy's come 'round for his darlin' again.
Hold my hand with your little fingers.
Daddy's loving arms gonna gather you in.
Ain't no way the Bogeyman can get you,
You can close your eyes, the world is gonna let you,
Your daddy's here and never will forget you,
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Long is the road
We must travel on down.
Short are the legs
That will struggle behind.
I wish I knew for sure
Just where we're bound,
What we will be doin'
And what we're gonna find.
Wherever we go, there will be birds to cheer you
Flower to color in the fields around.
Wherever we go, I'll be right here near you
You can't get lost when you're always found.

Ain't no fog that's thick enough to hide you
Your daddy's gonna be right here beside you
If your fears should start to get inside you
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Little Miss Poopie Pants

She smells bad, gosh!

Doing good! Moving towards the Birthday Party!!! Its going to rock! A one year olds birthday party. That's Awesome!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Poopie Pants Bella

Fun in playland

"...Every once in awhile you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right..."
Grateful Dead lyric

Bella and Jen in the O'boro tonight. Bella is doing great and having a good ole time.
You think that something will get Bella down, but she does the opposite of what you think. Its like she has blinders on in life. She is only looking forward, never to go back.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and BadFish Bella

Giggles

Golden Slumbers
by The Beatles


Once there was a way to get back homeward.
Once there was a way to get back home.
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.
Golden Slumbers fill your eyes,
Smiles awake you when you rise.
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Romper Rory

Enough Said

Art in Me

Bella is doing well. Of course, everytime I say that we end up in the hospital. So I take it all back. We have explained to Bella that we have been in the hospital to much this month. No more, Baby. No more

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Sassy Girl Bella

What a Wonderful World

This is why Bella is still here with us. Jen! She has given up her life for Bella's. I know thats what mothers do but she gave it all up. She never misses a doctor's appointment. She spends every night in the hospital. She is with her at every therapy appointment. She is Bella and Bella is her. They have almost morfed into one. Like a Transformer(anybody remember those). Bella laughs when Jen laughs. That makes me laugh.

On Wednesday, Jen was feeding Bella when she turned blue and quit breathing for about 20 seconds. Jen called 911 and while on the phone with them Bella just seemed to come back. Like nothing happened. Imagine the scariest thing that you have ever done. Like bungee jump, skydive, or even a car wreck. That doesn't even compare to how we felt. For the past two days in Kosairs, we haven't even focused on the what could have happened but what is happening know. We still have alot of I don't knows. Common census is that she had a seizure. Not really sure. They did all of their fancy test. Everything came back alright. Its Friday, we are home and glad to be. Loving every moment with Bella.

Thank you to the evil Karen and nice David Price. Thank you for everything. Most of all thanks for the love and concern. Thank your Sunday School Class for Supper and Lunch. Thank you Monica and family. KFC is good in the emergency room even though she got green beans!

Love everyone,
Jen, Jw, and Peaches and Cream Bella


Carson good luck on Sunday. You will do fine. You punk!

You Make Me, Me

Bella is doing well. She is more alert than ever. She did fine with her chemo today. She slept in Jen's arms most of the time. While I slept in one of the chairs. I get a nap in whenever possible.

This is Bella's Notre Dame shirt that Lewanda got for her. Lewanda said she is like the fighter on the front.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Monkey Lover Bella

Little hippie

Don't call me hippie cause the way that I look...

Bella's little hippie easter dress...Of course, Daddy picked it out. Good Easter, Good Weekend...not in hospital for the first weekend in three weekends. Went to Highview Baptist Church. Everyone was very nice except for that ole Karen Price. She's evil!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and little hippie Rory Isabella Shoemaker

Seeing Angels

SEEING ANGELS
Lyrics © John Butler 2004

Why do I deserve such a visit
From the one I thought I'd never meet.
Beyond my greatest expectations.
You exceeded everything.
Well here I am

Take me for what you see
For I'm transparent in the light of you.
And look inside,
See that fire burning bright
The same one you rekindled inside me

My mouth was dry
only you quenched my thirst
I thought I was last
You told me I was first.

And I thought I was seeing Angels
And now I know I was.
your wings around me
Feel good they always does .

So there I was
Ain't the same man I used to be
But do you still like what you in me.
For I am frightened
Shed so much I clung onto
The only thing I got left is this guitar and you.

Nowhere to run
Been out here too long
Under the sun.
Am I too afraid
To get some.
To afraid to give myself some shade
I hope and pray I do some day.

The Long and Winding Road

We finally get to sleep in our own beds again. We broke out of the hospital or they released us. We told Bella that we were bustin' out this joint. They think that she has acid reflux. So more medicine. Whatever makes her feel better.

Its been a long two weeks! Very long two weeks. Thanks for all the visitors. You all help pass the time. Thanks for all of the phone calls of concern. We love everyone and miss everyone.

Jen, Jw, and Bonified Acid Refluxer Bella

Unforgetable you

We went to Kosair's on Friday evening. Bella wasn't wanting to eat anything. Everytime she did eat, she would vomit. So, why would you want to eat? She wasn't her normal self on Friday or Saturday. Not eating, laughing, and rarely crying. Fast forward to Sunday morning. She is finally eating, laughing, and crying. Since all of this has happened, I have learned one medical term- I don't know. I wish that worked in my job. Keep Jen and I in your prayer. We have a lot of difficult decisions ahead of us.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Booger Bella