Pictures on the Floor

The first picture is Sleeping Beauty
The second picture is Fox and the Hound...that's Jen's idea
The third picture is Beauty and the Beast....You be the judge!



Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Sleeping Beauty Bella

Crying, but for a good reason

We both cried today for a good reason......Bella's tumor has shrunk again. I don't know percentages or numbers. All I know is thats good news and I'll take it.....Good news on a Friday...No better way to start out the weekend....Oh yeah, Bella just pooped her pants....got to go...

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Bulging Diaper Bella

Death to the Bouncy Seats(notice seats are plural)!!!!

The picture of the bouncie seat is the first one that Bella broke. So, then we went to three other shops to get another one. Then she proceeded to break the other one in three weeks. Strong legs....

Bella goes for a kidney test, hearing test, and a MRI on Wednesday. Lets hope that its all good news....

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Bella

Upside down

JACK JOHNSON
"Upside Down"

Who’s to say
What’s impossible
Well they forgot
This world keeps spinning
And with each new day
I can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There’s no stopping curiosity

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
All finer things they say just can’t be found
I’ll share this love I find with everyone
We’ll sing and dance to Mother Nature’s songs
I don’t want this feeling to go away

Who’s to say
I can’t do everything
Well I can try
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren’t always just what they seem

I want to turn the whole thing upside
All finer things they say just can’t be found
I’ll share this love I find with everyone
We’ll sing and dance to Mother Nature’s songs
This world keeps spinning and there’s no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round and

Upside down
Who’s to say what’s impossible and can’t be found
I don’t want this feeling to go away

Please don’t go away
Please don’t go away
Please don’t go away
Is this how it’s supposed to be
Is this how it’s supposed to be

Coldplay lyrics

Not being able to doing anything is one of the worst parts..

Fix You
by Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Good

Bella is fantastic!!!!

Sting Rays, Sharks, and Fishes, Oh My!

Here are two photos mommy took at the Georgia Aquarium. We had such a wonderful time! I got to hear all kinds of sounds, especially of kids yelling and laughing. Plus I got to hear all kinds of splashing. Mommy says there were little fish and big fish, blue fish and red fish. Some fish were nice, while others would bite you. Yikes! I had so much fun visiting Grandpa and Grandma Hardy. They gave me a lot of attention. Plus I visited with Auntie Nora, Great Grandma and Grandpa Johnson, Uncle Carie and Aunt Margaret. And for the first time, I met someone from France. His name was Elias and he was a visitor of Grandpa and Grandma Hardy. I had so much fun that I can't wait to go back!

Ta ta!

Bella Girl

creed lyrics

Bella is doing fantastic!!!


With Arms Wide Open
by Creed

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything ...oh yeah
With arms wide open..wide open

[Guitar Break]

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything..oh yeah
With arms wide open....wide open

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Today is my daddy's birthday! He turns the big 3-0. Mommy is soooo happy that daddy is now in his thirties just like she is. If you get a chance, wish him a Happy Birthday. He would LOVE it!

Ta ta!

Baby Bella

HIppie

Thanks to all of the Isabellites for the yard sale on Saturday. Thanks to everyone who came and helped!!! Everything was a success. A big special thanks goes out to the Isabellites with the human given names of Gina, Randell, Will(ha, ha), and Caroline for everything. You really don't know how much it means to us. Thanxs!!! If Randell was here, I would give him a big ole' hug and kiss(sweet). Tell Michael, I said hi.....

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and hippie hippie shake Bella

Get up

Bella is doing well. She is now over 20lbs. She is becoming a chunky monkey!!!

Love ya
Jen, Jw. and Rotund Rory

I love you

Everything is good with no complaints

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Big Girl Bella

Strange but true
Every time I look at you
The only three words I think of
I love you
Three words said to much
but not said enough

I just want you to open your eyes
and tell me that you can see me
I just want you to tell me
that you feel no pain

Time Alone

Time alone only makes things worse. You have way to much time to think about everything. Like the drive into work or laying down at night to go to sleep. I know that she is doing fine. But it goes through my mind the what ifs. You go from one scenario to the next. Usually ending up at the worst one. Or you hear a song and the lyrics make you tear up because you know what their talking about. Even if you really have no idea what they are talking about.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Big Girl Bella

Blast from the Past

Give me your hand. We will walk for awhile. No one ever said that it would be easy but no one ever said it would be this hard. Don't let go of my hand. I think that we have a chance if you just give me your hand.

Jw

K-I-S-S-I-N-G

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol


We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Weekend in the Garden

We spent the weekend in Glasgow with nana and papaw. Fun in the big metropolis. A couple of days away. Jen and I left the baby with the folks so that we could venture into the surrounding cities(not the big cities though, there scary). Bella had a good time getting her picture taken in the flower gardens by nana or thats what nana says. She is doing delicious. She is a little piglet!

Peace unto you,
Jen, Jw, and Beautiful Bella

Does this diaper make my butt look big?

Bella is doing well. She has a good three weeks!

Peace be with you
Jen, Jw, and Belly sleeper Bella

Flowers/Snow Patrol lyrics

Bella's beauty is like this flower. Growing, Blooming, and just needing a little TLC!

Peace unto you,
Jen, Jw, and Romper Rory

Run
by Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.

Isn't She Lovely

Sorry that I haven't updated this sooner. But when things are going well, its hard to remember that she is sick. Besides the medicine, therapist everyday, doctors appointments, and the scars, everything seems fine. Bella had a good weekend. Papaw and Nana came up for the weekend. So I'm sure she got plenty of lovin'. Papaw even took a stab at feeding her!(no kiddin')

Peace with you,
Jen, Jw, and my hair is growing back Bella

Pretty

Bella is doing better now. She hasn't thrown up in a couple of days.
She also has learned to acknowledge the word "pretty". So you can say, "Bella, Are you pretty?". Then she smiles. Its cute!!!

TIRED

I'm tired of worrying all of the time. I'm tired of worrying when she doesn't sleep all night. I'm tired of worrying when she does sleep all night. I'm tired of worrying when she cries. I'm tired of worrying when she doesn't cry. I'm tired. Jen's tired. We're both exhausted. We are ready to just love her all of the time and give up all of the worrying. We worry about the stupid little things now. Its part of our nature now.

Peace be with you,
Jen, Jw, and I'm the boss Bella

To Much Time To Think

It takes me about 30 minutes to get to work. I pretty sure that that is to much time to think. Being by yourself, you ponder on things. Like today, I wondered how you explain the colors to someone who has never seen them? How do you describe red, yellow, or blue to a blind person? I came up with nothing.

Jen, Jw, and Battle Axe Bella

Birthday Bash

um you, you got something right there. no the other side.

mmmm...a whole cake just for me!!!!

All of these presents for me!

mmmm...more!

Birthday Princess

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday baby girl!!!!

Its been one heck of a year.

love ya
jen, jw, and birthday girl bella

its the final countdown...1 day

Look how tiny she was....now she's freakin' huge!!!!
She is in a great mood today. It must be the sunshine!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Birthday girl to be Rory Isabella Shoemaker

countdown to the Birthday...2 days

Hard to believe that its almost been a year. What a very long and winding road it has been. It has been a very rewarding year with Bella. She has taught me, changed me, and molded me into what I am now. She has taught me to love, care, and what is really important in life.


It has also been a very difficult year for Jen and I. We both can still cry at any point in the day. Bella was sick a couple of weeks ago, I didnt' realized how tired we really are. We are both mentally and physically exhausted. Day to day task seem to be the hardest to get done. Everything seems very difficult and draining. Neither one of us want to do anything with out the baby. We both have fear of what could happen. We don't like leaving her alone anymore. Our lives revolve around the little tike.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Zantac Baby Bella

Happy Mother's Day

Just wanted to tell everyone a Happy Mother's Day.

Bella is doing good. We got to go to the International Barbeque Festival yesterday in Owensboro, Ky. We had a delicious time in O'boro this weekend. Good seeing everyone!

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Burgoo Bella

everything

Everything
by Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals

Behind all of your tears
There's a smile
There's a smile
Behind all of the rain
There's a sunshine
For miles and miles

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

The colors of your garden
They're yellow, blue and green
And the sound of your sweet voice
It's better than all my dreams

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Your my first thought in the morning
When I rise
Oh- when I rise
You're my last thought in the evening
When I rest my head at night

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me

Grateful Dead song lyrics/still my favorite pictures

I Will Take You Home (Little Girl Lost) Lyrics
Grateful Dead


Little girl lost
In a forest of dreams.
It's a dark old wood
And it's damp with dew.
Hoot owl hoots
For a moment it seems
Something big and cold
Just got ahold of you.
Just when everything gets scary,
Daddy's come 'round for his darlin' again.
Hold my hand with your little fingers.
Daddy's loving arms gonna gather you in.
Ain't no way the Bogeyman can get you,
You can close your eyes, the world is gonna let you,
Your daddy's here and never will forget you,
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Long is the road
We must travel on down.
Short are the legs
That will struggle behind.
I wish I knew for sure
Just where we're bound,
What we will be doin'
And what we're gonna find.
Wherever we go, there will be birds to cheer you
Flower to color in the fields around.
Wherever we go, I'll be right here near you
You can't get lost when you're always found.

Ain't no fog that's thick enough to hide you
Your daddy's gonna be right here beside you
If your fears should start to get inside you
I will take you home.
I will take you home.
Gonna carry you back home
In my arms.
I will take you home.

Little Miss Poopie Pants

She smells bad, gosh!

Doing good! Moving towards the Birthday Party!!! Its going to rock! A one year olds birthday party. That's Awesome!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Poopie Pants Bella

Fun in playland

"...Every once in awhile you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right..."
Grateful Dead lyric

Bella and Jen in the O'boro tonight. Bella is doing great and having a good ole time.
You think that something will get Bella down, but she does the opposite of what you think. Its like she has blinders on in life. She is only looking forward, never to go back.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and BadFish Bella

Giggles

Golden Slumbers
by The Beatles


Once there was a way to get back homeward.
Once there was a way to get back home.
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.
Golden Slumbers fill your eyes,
Smiles awake you when you rise.
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Romper Rory

Enough Said

Art in Me

Bella is doing well. Of course, everytime I say that we end up in the hospital. So I take it all back. We have explained to Bella that we have been in the hospital to much this month. No more, Baby. No more

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Sassy Girl Bella

What a Wonderful World

This is why Bella is still here with us. Jen! She has given up her life for Bella's. I know thats what mothers do but she gave it all up. She never misses a doctor's appointment. She spends every night in the hospital. She is with her at every therapy appointment. She is Bella and Bella is her. They have almost morfed into one. Like a Transformer(anybody remember those). Bella laughs when Jen laughs. That makes me laugh.

On Wednesday, Jen was feeding Bella when she turned blue and quit breathing for about 20 seconds. Jen called 911 and while on the phone with them Bella just seemed to come back. Like nothing happened. Imagine the scariest thing that you have ever done. Like bungee jump, skydive, or even a car wreck. That doesn't even compare to how we felt. For the past two days in Kosairs, we haven't even focused on the what could have happened but what is happening know. We still have alot of I don't knows. Common census is that she had a seizure. Not really sure. They did all of their fancy test. Everything came back alright. Its Friday, we are home and glad to be. Loving every moment with Bella.

Thank you to the evil Karen and nice David Price. Thank you for everything. Most of all thanks for the love and concern. Thank your Sunday School Class for Supper and Lunch. Thank you Monica and family. KFC is good in the emergency room even though she got green beans!

Love everyone,
Jen, Jw, and Peaches and Cream Bella


Carson good luck on Sunday. You will do fine. You punk!

You Make Me, Me

Bella is doing well. She is more alert than ever. She did fine with her chemo today. She slept in Jen's arms most of the time. While I slept in one of the chairs. I get a nap in whenever possible.

This is Bella's Notre Dame shirt that Lewanda got for her. Lewanda said she is like the fighter on the front.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Monkey Lover Bella

Little hippie

Don't call me hippie cause the way that I look...

Bella's little hippie easter dress...Of course, Daddy picked it out. Good Easter, Good Weekend...not in hospital for the first weekend in three weekends. Went to Highview Baptist Church. Everyone was very nice except for that ole Karen Price. She's evil!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and little hippie Rory Isabella Shoemaker

Seeing Angels

SEEING ANGELS
Lyrics © John Butler 2004

Why do I deserve such a visit
From the one I thought I'd never meet.
Beyond my greatest expectations.
You exceeded everything.
Well here I am

Take me for what you see
For I'm transparent in the light of you.
And look inside,
See that fire burning bright
The same one you rekindled inside me

My mouth was dry
only you quenched my thirst
I thought I was last
You told me I was first.

And I thought I was seeing Angels
And now I know I was.
your wings around me
Feel good they always does .

So there I was
Ain't the same man I used to be
But do you still like what you in me.
For I am frightened
Shed so much I clung onto
The only thing I got left is this guitar and you.

Nowhere to run
Been out here too long
Under the sun.
Am I too afraid
To get some.
To afraid to give myself some shade
I hope and pray I do some day.

The Long and Winding Road

We finally get to sleep in our own beds again. We broke out of the hospital or they released us. We told Bella that we were bustin' out this joint. They think that she has acid reflux. So more medicine. Whatever makes her feel better.

Its been a long two weeks! Very long two weeks. Thanks for all the visitors. You all help pass the time. Thanks for all of the phone calls of concern. We love everyone and miss everyone.

Jen, Jw, and Bonified Acid Refluxer Bella

Unforgetable you

We went to Kosair's on Friday evening. Bella wasn't wanting to eat anything. Everytime she did eat, she would vomit. So, why would you want to eat? She wasn't her normal self on Friday or Saturday. Not eating, laughing, and rarely crying. Fast forward to Sunday morning. She is finally eating, laughing, and crying. Since all of this has happened, I have learned one medical term- I don't know. I wish that worked in my job. Keep Jen and I in your prayer. We have a lot of difficult decisions ahead of us.

Love ya
Jen, Jw, and Booger Bella

A Long Tall Weekend

Sorry, I haven't updated in a while. The truth is sometimes I don't like to think that my baby is sick but she is. Right when you start to forget, something makes it all come back to you. It can be something big or something small. It can be as simple as a song lyric or an old picture.

A long tall weekend. On Friday, the three of us back up to go to Glasgow/Bowling Green for the weekend. You know, a little time with the folks and the folks a little time with the great important one, Bella. Friday night into Saturday morning, Bella starts vomiting and her soft spot isn't so soft anymore. So at 6am, we pack up and come back to Louisville to go to Kosair's. After two CT scans, X-rays, and eight hours in the emergency room, we finally get into a room. Not a real room. A room in the ICU. No bed(one recliner) and no bathroom, so you have to go out near the waiting room to tinkle. So Bella was in the hospital from Saturday morning to Tuesday afternoon. I don't know what it was but this time really hit hard. Maybe because she is on a two week break from chemo or that Jen was so excited about taking her to Atlanta to see her dad. I don't know what it was. Maybe, it was just lack of sleep. I don't know but it really hurt this time. Each time gets that much harder. So that is a long tall weekend.

Love ya,
Jen, Jw, and Bella

We were really looking forward to seeing everyone at Trinity. Sorry.